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I've been lying to myself, I'm a fabulist.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
I feel that I'm not doing enough. But what's the point in the first place? Your attitude towards me seems to have changed so drastically. Probably I was just bringing false hopes upon myself. But I really feel cheated by you.I do admit that I'm naive to believe you. Its been 3 weeks since I came back from the Cambodia trip. I promised myself that I will not look back at the messages you sent me while I'm there cos they're all lies. I've been living in self denial for the past 3 weeks. Besides lying to myself, what more can I do to make myself feel better? Maybe we're just not meant to be. Don't tell me you'll miss me. I consider that as the biggest lie you've told me. I guess I really need someone who I really can trust to pour out my heart to; But there's no one I know that can keep secrets well. None. |